Last night I K-holed and went deeper than I've ever gone with K. I'm not gonna bother trying to describe the K-hole in detail as that is impossible. My body completely dissolved and my consciousness left to journey in the cosmos.
I confronted death and accepted it without fear because I knew it meant being reunited with my mom. This wasn't in the sense that I want to die because that is not the case. I just know that when I do die I will get to see my mother and that makes it much better.
I came to realize my mom is within me and always will be. I already believed in life after death but this experience 100% confirmed that there is life after death. One of the realms I traveled to was a place filled with various spirits. It was the most incredible and beautiful K-hole I've ever had. Was on a completely different level than those in the past.
Today I'm the happiest I've been since she died which was on Christmas morning (brain cancer). Before this I had lots of rage inside of me and anguish and sorrow. A crazy mix of emotions and it was making life very difficult.
My friend who I get all my psychedelics from gifted me some K as medicine for my loss and I'm so happy he did. Today I've been thinking about my mom and her being gone which usually makes me break down, but instead I'm totally okay and understand that this is a part of life. In the grand scheme of things I will see her very soon even though it may feel like a long time.
During this K-hole I had my essential oil diffuser going with a serenity blend. Makes the room smell amazing and actually calms you and puts you in a good mindset. Highly recommend it for setting the scene.