So I've been injecting intramuscularly almost everyday for the last 2 months. My dose is usually around 100mg and I've done it anywhere from once to 5 times a day. Here are some ways in which this has been affecting me:
Mental addiction. I feel the need to hole at least once a day. My motivation for most things is gone. At this point, I can sit in my room drugged out for hours at a time while forgoing any important errands that I need to accomplish. The physical addiction isn't there from what I can tell. I've gone 4-5 days without dosing a couple of times and I didn't feel any sort of withdrawal.
The effects have changed. It's hard to describe what k feels like in the first place, but it's definitely not the same as it was in the beginning. Now when I hole, I'm usually just in a super confused state for the majority of the time. I don't even remember drugging myself half the time. It's much less enjoyable and even boring now.
Sleep deprivation. I feel exhausted all day. I can sleep for hours and still wake up tired. This is probably because I've gotten into the habit of dosing right before I go to sleep. It's definitely messing with my body's ability to rest. And there's another affect that I'll talk about in the next point that also ties into me not getting any rest.
Blackouts/"Sleepwalking." Probably the most negative aspect of my use happens when I redose too soon after a k-hole. I black out during the first 10-20 minutes of my trip. The scary part is that I have no recollection of the events that go on while I'm blacked out. I didn't even know this was happening until recently when my family members started talking about me sleep walking. Now that I know that it happens, I'm pretty sure this has been happening for awhile. During these episodes, I talk complete nonsense, often repeat my sentences, have trouble walking, and can not comprehend a single thing that anyone says to me, nor will I listen to them. During the comedown, after I "come to" I usually can't even remember taking the ket so a lot of times I'll wonder why I'm sitting there feeling so out of it - this has led me to stupidly redosing again just 10-15 minutes after a huge dose. I've seen videos of myself during these moments and it's pretty terrifying to see myself like that. I have such a dead look in my eyes and look like a zombie. I'm scared I'm going to hurt myself if I don't stop.
Loss of sex drive. I don't know if this is related to Ket or other mental factors, but since this binge has started, I haven't been very interested in sex. I find it hard to keep an erection even before climax.
Other tidbits: Due to my ROA and the frequency of my use, my injection sites are super sore. I've been rotating between 4 sites mostly, but I've recently added in another 2. I'm not sure if it's because of my ROA, but I haven't had any noticeable bladder issues. I've injected into what I think must have been a blood vessel in at least 2 separate occasions. I would hole just seconds after pulling the needle out, which is not a good feeling when the hole is accompanied by confusion and the fact that I forget that I even took any ket. I've blacked out both of these times.