I've had a lot of experience with this love hate relationship drug. This is by far my favorite trip out of all of them. See, I'm not like most people. I love the feeling of being in my own horror movie (as I call a DPH trip). This one was an actual rated r horror movie and I honestly loved it.
T:1:00 dosed 1.5 grams of diphenhydramine hydrochloride. Let's ride the rollercoaster. I'm very excited as usual. I haven't dosed a heroic dose like this since November 2018. And for a real doozie haven't taken DPH for a month. I'm prepared for the worst but expecting the best.
T:1:45 starting to shake a lot. Unexpected quick dream like feeling. Very weird feeling things like my arms are sedated but on the inside. The translucent spiders are starting to visit. Hearing my name called from all corners of my room but don't respond because I'm still in reality. At least for a little bit.
T:2:00 this is where memory gets a little hazy. I was talking to one of my friends on Snapchat and I'm starting to "drunk text" and whenever I seem to read their text I hear it out loud. Was talking to my girlfriend. She faded away and I realized I was about to start riding the rollercoaster.
T:2:30 the shadow people are starting to point and talk about me. I thought I was at my friend's house but nobody was there but me. I go to pet his dog and realize I'm in my bathroom turning on my sink. I see my mom peering her head in asking what I'm doing and I say "I don't know" then poof. She disappeared, remembering nobody's home but me. I quickly scurry up to my room, heart beating quicker than a car goes on a highway and I see a group of shadow people huddled up in my room corner whispering about my past, everything I've done wrong. Nothing right. Next thing I hear is "it's okay just stay away from them."
T:3:20 I spaced out on my wall, having whole tv shows play for me while I watch what my brain is somehow forming. I snap out of it to some random person's face next to mine. I jump so far I almost fall off my bed and then forget about it and trance back into the wall. That group of shadow people is now split up, some in my hallway, in each corner of my room, and my closet. When one of them moves, they shift into this spirit ball until they get to the destination and then cross their arms like they are angry at me. I feel an incredible urge to shake my body and that shake lasted a little longer than it should have. After my seizure, I see the one in my left corner behind my TV shake his head and they huddle back up into their group and start whispering again. I feel so REAL like I'm above the plane dimension. I'm continually falling through some hyperspace of black vision and just random memories or dreams coming into my vision covering it fully and coming out of it realizing I walked into the wall with a glass bottle in my hand.
T:3:50 I remember typing a lot but I don't necessarily know who and what I'm doing. General confusion. Ignoring the crowd of voices surrounding me, enjoying the bugs and visual changes of my whole area of vision into that hyperspace.
T:4:50 I'm feeling incredible. Like I just went on a heroic dose of some hallucinogen. Half the time you're in autopilot mode, doing stuff without you knowing. It's a scary feeling but nonetheless one of the fun parts of the trip. Hallucinating translucent bugs and people darting in the corner of my eye. Plenty of knocks on my door but nobody.
NOW: I am very brain fogged. Hallucinating that weird jelly like slit in reality wall hallucinations and translucent bugs with the occasional whisper. I loved eiriel. But remember, the way to reach eiriel takes a lot of time and a lot of brain altering. My 10 day binge dosing schedule: 1st day 300mg, 2nd 400, 3rd 500, 4th 600, 5th 750, 6th 900, 7th 1200 (all blackout), 8th 900mg, 9th 1000mg, and now today the 10th day 1500mg.