When I was 17, I met a guy who took adderall and I started to dabble with it myself. I lost tons of weight, and got down to 85 lbs (I'm a female) and developed anorexia as well. This went on for about 4 months until my mother caught me and decided to break the two of us up and due to this, I stopped taking the adderall.
After a couple of weeks, I found that I was putting some weight on and decided to start purging. After the bulimic episodes, which lasted about 2-3 months, I decided to see a doctor and got an adderall script of my own. After that, things started getting out of control.
I was taking the stuff daily (about 10 mg) and started to lose weight again. Only this time around it wasn't just weight loss. I was also gurning and clenching my teeth constantly. My skin started to feel disgusting, and I still wasn't eating enough. Eventually I got up to 15 mgs and at this time I was doing coke with an ex boyfriend occasionally and staying up for almost 3-4 days at a time. I didn't even feel human. I just felt robotic and emotionless.
After hitting 20 mg, I was just repeating the same routine everyday. Take my pill, chain smoke, forget to eat, repeat. After about 3 weeks I decided I hit rock bottom and quit. Flushed my whole prescription and never looked back. It's been about 5 months since I quit adderall and 4 months since I quit smoking. I gained 40 pounds and I still feel like it's written all over my face. It was just 1 year of that second episode, but I know what it can do to a person now. At the moment, I'm just trying to cope with the consequences of my actions, but I've found it so hard to forgive myself.