A modest 15mg of 4-AcO-DMT went down the hatch just a moment ago. It will be my first experience with a psychedelic. I've been patiently learning about the psychedelic world for months through reading and listening to content, and I couldn't do much more to be in a good headspace.
T+0:45: I keep going to look at this wonderful tapestry I have and it seems to sway and spin ever so slightly. Very early so it might just be my eyes playing tricks.
T+1:10: I have five colored LED bulbs throughout the room, each set to a different color. It's fascinating how moving between colored sections of the area has a subtle effect of shifting how I feel. The body load slowly seems to shift and spin in a greater manner. I've taken the 5mg booster as this is still extremely controllable.
T+1:35: This apple is absolutely delicious. It also seems to take up a significant portion of my attention when I eat it.
T+1:50: There's certainly a comfortable but noticeable sense of time dilation. Three minutes feels somewhat longer. I'm staring at my tapestry and it shows me beautiful visuals. It sways and swirls and melts, and all the different parts have so much more dimension. I feel so happy. Smiles keep appearing on my face just because.
T+2:30: It's very controllable at this level. I can open my eyes, stand up, and generally choose to exert willpower to keep it calm if I want. The feel of the physical and mental space changes quite a lot when you lay down and listen to music. In the dark it's very much like a solitude that isn't entirely uncomfortable but just very new.
T+3:40: How am I feeling about all this? This is something else. Familiar. Dark. Light. Cold. Warm. A total synthesis of so many different senses. A powerful, forceful teacher that shows you what you need to see without holding back for a second, and a loving caretaker that wants to show you the beauty in the universe. I completely understand when I've read about how it can be hard to take things back from this.
T+3:55: The mood right now is a solemn sort of melancholy. But it's good. This is catharsis perhaps. Release. Letting go of tensions that have been holding me back. Experiencing different pains so wholly right now is what I need so that I can appreciate the beauty I've been neglecting.
T+5:50: I'm down, more or less. What a ride for such a miniscule amount of powder. I'm intensely glad I went through with it. The experience was sort of like a washing of my mentality — I feel somewhat reset. It definitely made a lot of things apparent to me which usually aren't. I wrote one thing on my phone: DON'T FORGET. APPRECIATE THINGS MORE. SHOW LOVE. THIS IS WHY YOU TRIPPED.